Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I DONT KNOW! BUT I JUST WANT TO LET IT OUT HERE!!!
I've just came across someone's onsugar and hes posting really do inspired me to post to what i feel on that very moment when i start typing...
I felt that ever since i turned 18, all those ego in me had gone far far away. Good thing. But when problems comes one by one, i deal with it nicely by.......LET IT GO AND FORGET ABOUT IT, PRETEND NOTHING HAS HAPPENED!!! BAD CALL!!!
Im doing that without hurting nobody and of course, misunderstanding will not exist, but im hurting myself. For example if one problem comes, i let it go nicely, so nobody gets hurt, but then again before i went to sleep, i kept thinking about it withput even realizing that i've only few hours to get myself rested before doing an activities on a new day. I felt so miserable......
But one thing im glad of is there i've never make any enemies with anyone. But the bad thing is that im making enemy with myself. IM HURTING AND KILLING MYSELF!!!
I dont know what else to do, I just cant share anything with anyone cause i believe in this 3 words.. Dont Trust Anybody! And that someone's post he did say that LIFE WILL GET YOU EVEN MORE WHEN YOU'RE A TEENAGER! I truly believe in that and i guess i just have to deal with it.
I dont have any answers as to how to not hurt anyone and even me but then i believe i just have to stay calm and keep doing the usual way that i deal with life and slowly but surely find an answer on how to deal with it better!=)
Anyway peeps had been asking me why didnt i have a girlfriend? When will i have one? Who is it going to be?
I've got so annoyed with these questions! Just let me get this straight. I've been patiently waiting for this particular lady ever since we were in sec 1, I'll keep it cool and wait patiently for my time to come to personally meet her and so and so....
I know you might say its easy to plan and talk shit....
But im taking it slowly and hopefully i can proof to you guys i can achieve in getting her.=)
remember, IT PAYS TO BE PATIENT!!!=)