Wednesday, July 01, 2009
I wanted to visit my late grandpa's grave so bad!=(
I've been very ermm abit angry and somehow felt irritated by my sister and cousins who everytime when it comes to telling stories about my late grandpa, they will always say grandpa love to buy you toys la hakim, love to bring you go shopping at TM or geylang or anyway else la, love to feed you milk la, love to bring you to the playground la and so and so until i get sicked of hearing each and every lines of that!
It's not that i hate my late grandpa. No way, I LOVE HIM cause hes the BEST but then i hate it when sis and cousins says like that and they end up giving faces or act sarcastically after that. I never meant to attract grandpa's attentions but maybe because im the cutest thing he has ever seen! hahah...kidding only! Im just a baby back then, i can still feel the way he hug me, carry me around, taking care of me and feed me when mum and dad are working and even dare watching MIGHTY MORPHIN POWER RANGERS with me. hahah! I bet he even knows each and every rangers!=)
So just now i went to grandma's house to pick up my cargo pants which i kindly ask her to help me author, which she did and makes it a perfect length for me, thanks grandma! And so i sat down with her and eat my favourite spaghetti which she cooks it nicely and talk about religious thingy and grandpa. She told me that grandpa loves his whole grandchildrens alot but he just keen on spending more time with me cause im much more naive than the rest, and as usual, likes to cry alot! hahaha..kae that part crack me up! lol.. And so long story after that but in the end grandma told me that whatever happens, grandpa dont want me to be a BAD GUY in future.
Okay, after that sentence was being said, i realised how blessed i am to have him in my life for 6 years and to have mom, dad and grandma scolding, teaching and helping me lead to a better life till now. I'm blessed that up till now, i didnt even have a gangs to join forces with, i didnt even have the intentions of smoking a cigarette (up till now its still impossible), didnt have tattoos and i didnt even get drunk with whisky or liquor. So that says that after all this year my mind is fully focused on achieving my goals. Some has already been achieved while others are still in process, i hope so.
I know i have a dream and i must chase it no doubt cause thats what i want to be, but sometimes its kind of hard you know. Its not that im choosy, im friendly, but sometimes, certain things can separate the bonding and friendship that was about to be built. But anyway i will always try my very best in soccer and never give up, if theres any opportunity for me to further my talent in anything that i can do, then i will take it with both hands! =)
I think this is how mom, dad, grandma and grandpa wants me to be like when i grow up. Dad even said that he had this strange feeling that one day i'll be able to have grandpa's determination and characteristic attitude to help me in future and also help me chased my dream for the last time. And i think i'll be having it soon. I was born to be a tough cookie and a hardworking human! No matter what obstacles comes in my way, i'll deal with it! So i guess now is the right time for me to start to be serious and chase those dreams that i once feel of being like!
I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT just like how r.kelly believe he can fly! NOT! hahahhaa...
And ya before i forget, I'll be visiting grandpa's grave soon with grandma and her two sons and i cant wait!!!
MISS YOU GRANDPA! No matter what happen i will always be your greatest grandchildren and i promise you, i will make you proud of who i am! You'll see....=)
NIGHTS!