Saturday, August 30, 2008
I felt that im changing alot since that very day...
YUP! Still remember on the 20th june 2008 where my whole life started changing...After that day..the next day i looked at myself in the mirror and realised what i've become..
I guessed since after that pissed off yet funny day..Im changing more on the positive side..=)
Well...i still remember the me before 20th june 08...I can get mad easily..even small things..no doubt..i'll get angry..Im like a fucker for sure..=p When playing soccer..if my team doesnt play according to what i aimed for..then i will scold them anyhow..Just asked my 4T10 peeps...im sort of egoistic before 20th june..I cant be a funny person cause people will tend to hate looking at my face..the face of evil..the face that potraits the late ah meng's scariest cousin..the hideous face that once you looked at it..you tend to have these feeling wanting to vomit..Thats me before 20th june..And most of the time..i'll have a quarrel with my then girlfriend..Honestly..shes so innocent..only because of my egoistic thats why i tend to mostly blamed her when actually its my fault..Im totally IMMATURE! Everything i want..must go that way..sort of greedy type ehk..thats why most of my dreams could never be fulfilled..maybe god had enough of my attitude and decided to teached me some of his mighty lessons..
But after 20th june 2008..I felt much better..totally! Im not an egositic person i used to be..im not an angry fucker who tend to be pissed off over a slightest things..When playing socceroos..I didnt dare scold my team mates..not because im scared of them..oh no! NO WAY..heh..its because i realised people make mistakes..even me..i also make mistakes when playing..but just that..i respect them for what they are..maybe they are trying to work hard thats why they need mistakes to make them even better..And ya..I never tend to get pissed off..small or even big things..im still a calm person..a person who love having fun..laugh alot and make jokes..even lame will do..every single day..=)
So ya..im quite satisfied with who and what i am right now..though theres some departments that needs to be changed..im still happy with myself..And ya..I suddenly missed being in a relationship..RANDOM! ahah...but i admit..being single is not that really fascinating for me..Though being single makes feel me like who i am when i was a 7 years old kid..cheerful yet playful..but still being in a relationship makes me more relaxed..calm and composed..i dont have to find the right one cause the one who is with me might be forever with me..=p And what i've promised myself is that when i find the right one..i can assured her that i will not be like how i am last time..instead being the greatest guy ever..Actually im sort of still admiring that someone since sec school life..but only time will tell when i can be a gentlemen and make that first moved..So ya...but whatever it is..I hope the future is much brighter than i've ever thought...
Nights!